Well its another day in this hell they call life i honestly don't how much longer my heart can take this pain it unbearable i struggle to breath sometimes. I wonder how life can be so cruel why was it you? I'v gave up on this whole God thing because the god i knew was kind caring not an evil man who destroys people lives by taking there most precious most amazing baby away. People say times a healer or god works in mysterious way and everything happens for a reason to me that lies because time can't and won't heel this pain and god well i'v gave up on him. It just annoys me when people who haven't been in my situation as a mother losing her baby say 'aw i know how you feel' NO you don't i just feel empty people are eager for me to move on do things but what i really wanna do is just have a few days of just catching up with my self but no everyone knows best keep busy do something move on with your life but tbh i don't want to anymore.... I just don't know what to do anymore.... Love you more than everything baby sleeptight xxxx